Friday, August 30, 2013

Goodbye summer, Hello stress

According to the calendar, there are still about three more weeks until Fall officially arrives. For me, summer has already ended. It stopped the day I had to start getting back up at 6 am and heading back to school.

I thought this summer I'd write a lot, but I actually discovered the opposite was true. Writing for me accomplishes many things, but one of the biggest is stress relief. And who needs to worry about relieving stress when you're on a 2 1/2 month vacation? Not this girl, that's for sure.

Part of what makes it great is that Tim also works in a school so we get to spend the summer together. This summer was a blast. We spent a lot of time being active--running, hiking, swimming. We also caught up on the entire series of Breaking Bad (thank you, Netflix). We went on few day trips, spent time with our families, hung out with our awesome dog Penny... it was just a great time.

The most exciting part of our summer had to be our vacation. We spent a few days in New Orleans and then cruised to Cozumel, Mexico. New Orleans was a lot of fun, though Bourbon Street was a bit of a culture shock. We basically got lunch and high tailed it out of there. City Park, though, is lovely, and I'd highly recommend checking it out.

Vacationers
The cruise was just about perfect--just too short! The food was delicious! It was also probably the most relaxing vacation I can remember having. We'd sleep in, eat some breakfast, and then head out to the rear deck to find a beach chair to read. After lunch, we'd take a nap and read some more until it was time to get ready for dinner and evening festivities. One night, we were even chosen to go up on stage and be part of the "Love and Marriage Show", where couples answer embarrassing questions to see how much they know about each other, like on The Newlywed Show. We had a blast, and now, it's fun to show that video to our loved ones (and by fun, I definitely mean embarrassing!)

Cozumel was gorgeous. We went scuba diving which I highly recommend. I'm not the strongest swimmer, so I was a little nervous at first. In fact, I somehow managed to get water down in my snorkel within 2 minutes of being in the ocean. But we had on a life vest, and after getting used to the equipment and water, it became a lot of fun. It was beautiful, seeing all the fish under the water.

Scubaing in Cozumel
 Unfortunately, not only did the cruise have to come to the end, so did summer break. And with returning to work, stress has returned to my life. So far, it has been very manageable, but there are a lot of changes this year. Changes always stress me out, even when they are positive changes.

 

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Zombies, Run! 5K: Week 8


LAST WEEK!! I'm pretty excited, if you weren't able to tell. Each workout this week is different and the most challenging I've faced so far.


W8D1
Workout
5 minute walking
5 minute running
2 minute stretching
20 minute running
5 minute stretching
5 minute run
3 minute stretching
5 minute run

I was fairly pleased with myself on this workout. My legs felt great during the first part of the run. Unfortunately my stomach wasn't feeling as great as my legs so I had to walk some of the running towards the end because I didn't want to risk anything, if you know what I mean. So I feel like I could have done better--state wise--if my body would have cooperated.

Distance: 2.87 mi   Duration: 51:14 mins   Avg Speed: 3.33/mph   Avg Pace: 18:02 min/mi


W8D2

Workout 
5 minute walk
10 minute run
3 minute stetching
10 minute run
5 minute walk
10 minute run
5 minute walk
5 minute run

So this work out took me a while to complete. The first day I did it, I got 30 minutes done and felt miserable. Embarrassing as it is, I got to admit I was across the neighborhood and had to call Tim to come pick me up. I was just plain out sick.

I was feeling better the next day, but just felt like I wasn't ready to revisit this workout. So I decided to listen to a podcast and just do my own thing at my own speed. It turned out to be my best run in WEEKS. I did 65 minutes total. I walked for 15 minutes, ran for 50 minutes. One of my running periods was for a full 30 minutes and I did almost 2 miles!! Non-zombie stats were 65 minutes, 4.18 miles, and had a pace of 15:33! Woo!

Now back to finishing this Zombie workout...

So I restarted Day 2 and felt so much better. I even ran a little extra than the workout had, making it 40 minutes total outta a nearly 60 minute workout. I was very pleased. Oh, it was even raining during this run. I waited until it slowed to a drizzle, but it another achievement--rain running!

Distance: 3.44mi   Duration:  59:15 mins   Avg Speed: 3.41/mph   Avg Pace: 17:36 min/mi

W8D3: 

Workout
Run a 5K

So this one took me two tries too. I had taken two days off and headed out yesterday after work. I was in a rush, so I didn't take much time to stretch or do a proper warm up walk and just went for it... and after about a block or so, I felt like my legs were turning to stone. It was miserable. I decided the 5K wasn't happening today. Tim was out with Penny so he saw me and walked back to the house with me, coaching me that everyone has bad runs and its to be expected--especially after two days off and my lack of warming up and stretching.

I was feeling determined to fix it, though, so I decided to get up this morning at 4:55(!!!!) to run before work. I'm so not a morning person, but for some reason, I woke up when the alarm went off feeling pretty well. I even got out the door before Tim did... after proper stretching, of course!! It felt great being out there, still mostly dark while the rest of the world was asleep. It gave me time to pray, clear my head, and enjoy the quietness around me. I finished the 5K (3.10 miles) in just around 47 minutes, which I was happy with, especially since I only walked for about 3 minutes of the entire thing. I walked about 90 seconds in between miles 1 and 2 and then 2 and 3.

Distance: 3.26 mi   Duration:  51:01 mins   Avg Speed: 3.83/mph   Avg Pace: 15:39 min/mi


So now that I'm finished the 5K app, I'm going to move on to the full Zombies, Run! app. I'll try to keep updating on how my progress is going. I have 5 weeks until the Nick Adenhart 5K Run that I have been planning on doing for a while now. So the goal for the next 5 weeks is to work on my pace. I'd like to be at a 13 minute pace by the 5K, so I can finish with a time under 40 minutes! I think its possible, as long as I keep myself running consistently!

Saturday, April 27, 2013

Secret Shame...


I have a secret that I know I alone sufferer from... Sometimes, on occasion, in certain circumstances I worry what people think about me! Do I look stupid? Do I sound dumb? Am I just some weirdo that people like to laugh about when I walk out of the room? I'm a little jealous of all the extra time you have by not worrying about what people think of you.

So I'm kidding. I know we all have times when we feel self conscious. And if you don't, my professional advice would be to see a psychiatrist as soon as possible and ask him about narcissistic personality disorder. (Just kidding! For real!)

When I'm running and a car drives by or someone is working in their yawn, I often have a quick, but sharp "what are they thinking?!" fear. The more I run, the less I think about it. Over the past 7 weeks, I've come to peace with what I truly believe is reality.

One of running mantras!
I think when most people see anyone running--even those of us who aren't long legged gazelles--have two reactions. First--the non athletes--they see you and think "Look at her running... ugh, I really need to work out. I'll start tomorrow." I know I was that person for a long time in my life. I always admired anyone who was out running in public, with the sad knowledge that I wasn't one of them!

The second reaction is from those who do work out regularly. I imagine them giving me a little "you go girl!" chant while thinking about their last or their next workout. Ultimately, as humans we usually relate everything back to ourselves. So in a way it's silly that I'm worried what people will think of me because they're too busy thinking about themselves! It's how things seem to work for our species.

And if there is someone who thinks something mean, so be it. I'm sure it happens, but I think it is a lot more rare than my mind worries about. Who is better off in the long run--me pushing through a run or some idiot driving through my development? Who cares what a random stranger thinks when I have the love and support of my husband, family, and friends?

Zombies, Run! 5K: Week 7


Week 7 Work Out:
10 minute walk
5 minute free form running

5 cycles of:
1 minute running
15 minutes skipping
5 minute free form run

2 cycles of:
3 minute stretching/walk
5minute free form run

W7D1: Another run with terrible back pain! What's the deal runner friends? I have a few theories--not drinking enough water, hypothyroid symptom, need to stretch more? Tim suggested maybe I need to work on strengthening my core or even get a new sports bra. I don't know, but it's frustrating because I know I've 15 minute free form all the way through, and now I'm struggling with 5 minute runs? And it's all about the back pain. I'm making some immediate changes before my day 2 run on Saturday--more water and stretching and making sure I take some Tylenol before the run!


Distance: 2.57 mi   Duration: 44:36 mins   Avg Speed: 3.46/mph   Avg Pace:  17:20 min/mi

W7D2: Honest moment. I'm writing this a week after I actually did this run so I can't remember it all that well, other than by the stats... it sucked pretty bad! What I do remember is that I had planned to run Saturday morning, but Penny woke me up early and I wasn't feeling well so I put it off to the afternoon. And even then, Tim had to help kick my butt out the door. So my motivation wasn't the best and I just wasn't feeling it. But I've been told to expect those days and to aim to conquer them!

 Distance:  2.36 mi   Duration: 43:17 mins   Avg Speed: 3.2/mph   Avg Pace: 18:45 min/mi

W7D3:I do remember that on Sunday, I was feeling a little better and had a much more pleasant run mentally. Mostly, this run was important because it was my last of week 7! Only 1 more week to go before finishing the entire Zombies, Run! 5K program!


Distance:  2.6 mi   Duration: 44:00 mins   Avg Speed: 3.41/mph   Avg Pace:  17:35 min/mi

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Zomie, Run! 5K: Week 6

Week 6 Work Out:
5 minute walk
10 minute free form running
10 half squats

2 cycles of:
30 seconds stretching
10 half squants

5 minutes fast walk
7 minute free form run

2 cycles of:
2 minute stretching/walk
7 minute free form run

W6D1: This weeks workout seemed a little more complicated with all the different cycles and stretches. I'll start off with being honest. I didn't do the squats. I get that they are to help strengthen your legs, but my pride just wouldn't let me do squats out in the middle of our neighborhood. I did do some knee and heel lifts during those times, though. I had intentions of doing the squats once I got in the privacy of my own home, but never actually got around to it. As far as the run goes... it was my third difficult run in a row. Mentally, I struggled big time. Physically, it was hot and my legs felt heavy. But, I finished and I ran all the free form runs (31 minutes worth). And that's my focus now--endurance. I'll have a few weeks to work on my pace and speed once I'm done the 5K training program.

Distance:  2.98 mi   Duration:  51:02 mins   Avg Speed: 3.5/mph   Avg Pace: 17:08 min/mi


W6D2: I struggled before this run. I had taken a nap, got up and changed into my running clothes, and then sat on the couch and whined about not wanting to go out. Thankfully, my husband gently pushed me to get my butt out the door. I'm glad because it was my first good feeling run in over a week and I needed that! The weather was perfect and my legs felt great. My speed/pace was even up a little bit!

Distance:  3.05 mi   Duration:  50:18 mins   Avg Speed: 3.63/mph   Avg Pace: 16:31 min/mi


W6D3: I started off feeling pretty strong. It was a hot day and it felt (for lack of a better term) pollen-y. It was probably all in my head, but it was like I could feel all the pollen I was breathing in. So far, the allergy meds I started taking as soon as I noticed trees starting to blossom has been doing its job, though. Things were going pretty well until the last 7 minute free form run. For the first time in weeks, I had to walk for part of a free form run. Ugh. One of the symptoms of hypothyroidism is sore and weak muscles, which I've been dealing with. This week, the pain has been in my back. So during that last run, my legs felt okay, wasn't totally out of breath, and feeling mostly okay other than severe back pain! So I walked for about a minute, maybe a little more, of that last run, but at that point, I just wanted to make it home!!

  Distance:  2.92 mi   Duration: 49:52 mins   Avg Speed: 3.51/mph   Avg Pace: 17:05 min/mi

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Zombies, Run! 5K: Week 5

Week 5 Work Out:
5 minute walk
5 minute free form running

8 cycles of:
30 seconds walking
1 minute running
6 reps heel lifts

10 minute free form run
5 minute stretching/walk
10 minute free form run

W5D1: I felt great today. I went with Tim to the canal for his long run day. I knew he was planning for about 80 minutes out running, so I planned to do my regular workout, which was scheduled to take 52 minutes and then do another 20-30 minutes walking. Once I really got into the workout, I was feeling great. I turned off my app at the end of the 52 minutes, but kept on going. My "walk" back to the car turned into a free form run. So unofficially, I did 4.5 miles in 74 minutes. I ran all 33 minutes of the work out, plus an additional 12 on the way back to the car to give me 45 minutes total running today! My legs are feeling great now, and I'm hoping I didn't ruin them for tomorrow.


Distance:  3.26 mi   Duration: 52:00 mins   Avg Speed: 3.76/mph   Avg Pace: 15:59 min/mi

W5D2: I had a lot of fun on this run. I picked up my parents dog, Eddie, and took him with me to the canal. He had a blast and so did I. It took us a little while to get the hang of running together, but he seemed so happy trotting beside me. It was pretty hot, though, and my body is still adjusting to that.


Distance:   3.11 mi   Duration:  52:39 mins   Avg Speed: 3.54/mph   Avg Pace: 16:56 min/mi

W5D3: Ugh, this was a miserable run. I had taken two days off, but my muscles and legs just ached. I just wanted it to be over as soon as I had started. It was hot, too. My thyroid symptoms seem very elevated this week, so that wasn't helping anything. It was definitely a victory just to finish type of run. Hoping for a better run week during week 6!!

Distance:  3.01 mi   Duration: 51:54 mins   Avg Speed: 3.47/mph   Avg Pace: 17:16 min/mi

Friday, April 5, 2013

Zombies, Run! 5K: Week 4

Week 4 Work Out:
5 minute walk
5 minute running

5 cycles of:
10 seconds knee lifts
1 minute slow walking
1 minute fast walking

5 cycles of:
1 minute walking
30 seconds running

15 minute free form run

W4D1:Today was beautiful--perfect temperature, little wind, just lovely. And I didn't want to get off the couch. But I finally motivated myself to get out there. Looking at this week's workouts, it seemed to be much more about building endurance than speed. So that was what I decided to focus on. There was only 22.5 minutes running compared to 26 last week, but that 15 minute run was a bit scary. So I went out there with the goal of not even thinking about my speed and just running those 15 minutes solid. The hilarious thing? I went further than ever before with the best speed and pace yet. Crazy, huh? Also, I went a little over a mile in those 15 minutes, so I was pretty thrilled about that!


Distance: 3.45 mi   Duration: 49:48 mins   Avg Speed: 4:15/mph   Avg Pace: 14:26 min/mi

W4D2: This was one of those runs where it was simply about finishing. It was so windy that for a while, I had to hold on my hat so it didn't fly off my head. My legs felt so heavy! I started the 15 minute free form run going straight into the wind for a long stretch. When the app told me I had done 2 minutes, I thought my legs would fall off before I made it 15 minutes. But I persevered, jogging slowly along until I reached the end. I knew my stats would be terrible, but I finished and that was what today was about.


Distance:  2.92 mi   Duration: 47:17 mins   Avg Speed: 3.7/mph   Avg Pace: 16:12 min/mi

W4D3: I decided I needed a "change of pace" from running around our development, so I went to the Hagerstown City Park on my way home. City Park has a reputation for being a hangout for some less than reputable people, but typically that's after dark. I couldn't get the idea out of my head and there wasn't as many people out as I was hoping despite a pretty nice, if overcast, day. My run went fine for the first 40 minutes or so, other than having to leave the path due to a showdown with a goose that I lost. But with about 6  minutes left to my final free form run, I was behind an older, scruffy looking man who kept swaying from one side of the path to the other. I had no clue how I was going to pass him. He heard me coming up behind him and turned around. He reeked of alcohol and said "hey beautiful, where you headed." I said "just running" and probably stepped it up as fast as I could without going into a full out sprint. Thankfully, I was headed towards the main playground where I knew there were some people out. I circled the playground area until I finished my last 6 minutes. I don't think I'm going to be heading back there if I'm alone. Even before that happened, I just felt like I was so hyper vigilant of who I was around, that I couldn't relax and focus on my run at all.

Distance:  2.98 mi   Duration: 47:22 mins   Avg Speed: 3.77/mph   Avg Pace: 15:54 min/mi

Side Note: First, I am really glad to be done week 4! The 10+ minutes of slow walking/fast walking/knee lifts were so tedious. Looking ahead to week 5 seems to be a lot more challenging, so I'm really excited for that! Also, I am 50% of the way done the Zombies, Run! 5K app!! I finished 4 weeks in 24 days. If I keep up the same pace, I'll finish the app the last week of April, leaving me all of May and the first week of June to work on speed and pace for the 5K I have planned on June 8th. I did see one a few weeks before that--May 18th--today that benefits the Humane Society. I'm tempted to try to do both...

Thursday, April 4, 2013

"Chick with a Thyroid Problem"

Whenever I get frustrated with my weight loss progress or when I feel lousy and tired, Tim will oh so gently remind me that I'm "a chick with a thyroid problem."

That became a title I started carrying about two months after our wedding when my period didn't show up. Initially, we had a "oh crap" moment, and despite being married I worried about what my mother would say, but then we came to peace with this idea that my period was over a week late and even became--dare I say, excited? 

And that's when my journey to a diagnosis (actually, two diagnoses) began. We started out with several blood tests. No pregnancy, but my thyroid and prolactin hormones were off the charts. My PCP sent me through the gambit of tests--ultrasounds, CT scans, MRIs--before coming to any conclusions. The MRI was the worst. The noise is bad, the small tube is bad, but the two being combined is pretty miserable.

My PCP was able to diagnose my first issue--which was the most frightening sounding of the two. I had a rare tumor in my brain that was in the pituitary gland and was the cause of the high prolactin levels. Despite the words "tumor", "brain", and "rare" in the same sentence, this ended up being a relatively minor issue. Everything was benign and it was easily treatable with medication. I take a half a pill twice a week and the tumor will shrink until it disappears. My prolactin levels are dropping and at some point in the next year or so, I should be able to be off of the medication.

I was then sent to an ENT doctor due to the thyroid hormones. She conducted a 2 day long radioactive thyroid study and confirmed a diagnosis of hyperthyroidism. I was surprised because I didn't have some of the main signs--weight loss, hair falling out, or high energy levels. As with most things with the human body, everyone experiences their own symptoms. For whatever reason--I think it was the combination of the tumor and the hyperthyroidism--my main symptoms were irregular periods, headaches, shaky hands, fatigue, and weight gain.

From there, I was sent to my first appointment with my endocrinologist. I left there that day not really liking the guy. He confirmed the diagnosis of hyperthyroidism and gave me my options. I could take medication and after 18 months, I'd have a 50/50 chance that the hyperthyroidism would go into remission. However, it would most definitely be back at some point, especially if I were to get pregnant. I asked about getting pregnant during that 18 months. It wasn't ideal, he explained, because of the higher risk of miscarriage and that they would have to switch me to a less preferred medication for part of the pregnancy due to development of the baby.

My other option was to take a radioactive iodine treatment. I'd swallow a pill, the thyroid would suck up all the radioactive iodine, and over a few months, my thyroid gland would die off. This would put me into a hypoactive state for the rest of my life and I would permanently be taking a replacement hormone. Due to the radiation, I would not be able to get pregnant or our little one would also be born without his or her thyroid.

I spent a few days feeling pretty devastated. We felt like we were ready to try for a baby. I didn't even want to wait six months. I didn't want to force my body into a hypoactive state. I didn't like the odds on remission. I hated all my options. 

I finally decided that the six month radiation treatment and a life of replacement hormones made the most sense for me. I called the doctor and about a week later I was swallowed the radiation pill. I had to keep my distance from people for two day--including Penny, who didn't understand why all of a sudden she couldn't cuddle on my lap. I even got the bed to myself for the weekend. Other than feeling exhausted for the two to three weeks afterwards, it wasn't that terrible of an experience.

Since then, the doctor has been monitoring my dropping hormone levels. My most recent appointment was yesterday where we got some great news. My hormone levels were at "the perfect levels" to start the replacement hormone. Next month, I head back to the doctor for another hormone check to see if the meds need any adjustments. The doctor felt pretty confident that he'd be able to get the amount I would need right within the next visit. He also said, if things continue to progress as they have been, Tim and I can start "trying" in June. Once I got through my initial dislike of my doctor (it was only because of the news he gave me), I'm glad he' the one treating me. I mean, it's not like I want to go out to dinner with him or meet his family, but I have been impressed with his knowledge, experience, and treatment of hyperthyroidism. If you find yourself needing to see an endocrinologist, feel free to contact me and I will give you his name.

During the visit yesterday, the doctor asked me how my weight loss progress had be going. I told him I had lost about 19 lbs overall. He inquired about how the last few weeks had gone. "Funny you should ask..." I began, as I told him of how I stayed the same two weeks ago and saw a 3 pound gain this week, despite running 12 miles and staying under my calorie goal. He simply nodded and said "the timing would be right around the time your thyroid hormone dropped into the hypo range".

I looked at Tim and smiled. He gave me a look that said, "I could do this doctor thing!" So  I had to admit that he was right--I'm a "chick with a thyroid problem".

Friday, March 29, 2013

Gym Class Nightmares

When I left middle school in June of 1999, I really had no plans on every going back. But as it turns out, I'd return 12 years later, but this time as a faculty member. Thankfully, I'm not a teacher, and I mean that in the best way possible. I understand now, why teachers get a break in the summer. It's to keep them in schools and out of insane asylums. Instead, I'm a school social worker which keeps me busy, just in different ways as a teacher.

Last week, a girl I work with asked me what middle school was like when I was there. We talked about the lack of iPhones, the beginnings of the Internet, and how I hadn't yet seen a laptop in person. Despite all the changes in technology, one thing that I've learned in the two years I've been working in a middle school, is that in general, girls still hate gym class.

Gym in elementary school was a pretty good deal. I remember getting to ride around on little scooters and playing with that giant parachute. It wasn't until fifth grade when we were told for the very first time that we would be running "the mile" that day."The mile". I'd hate that term for the next five years.

Things seemed to get worse in middle school. I think some of it was the whole idea of changing in front of other girls. As if you're not feeling awkward enough during the beginning years of puberty, schools decided that it's a great time for you to start changing in front of all your peers.

The hardest part for me about gym class was that I simply wasn't good at it. I was the straight A, over achieving type. I remember worrying each time report cards were about to be sent home that gym class would keep me off the distinguished honor roll.

I could do math like whiz. I could analyze literature. I could balance a chemical equation.

But I couldn't run that stinkin' mile.

Sometimes, I'm surprised my parents didn't take me to see the doctor for some sort of gym class induced anxiety. I would be in tears on a regular basis during the track and field unit. It was the time of the school year that I loathed the most.I didn't like failing at anything, especially when everyone in your class could see that you were one of the last people to cross the finish line. When I collected the one gym credited I needed to graduate at the end of 9th grade, I was a very happy girl. No more mile runs for me!

The irony of that hasn't escaped me or my parents. My dad has told me a few times how crazy it is now that I choose to run. Even though, a lot of days, I'm still battling those middle school feelings of inadequacy. Every new week in my training program, I wonder if this will be the week that I am incapable of doing. I love proving those feelings wrong, though.

I wish schools would do gym class differently. I think kids--especially the kids like me, who were not coordinated, athletic, or in shape--need a lot of help in finding ways to exercise that is fun. In high school, we had a few specialized classes in weight lifting and aerobics to pick as electives, but at that point, I was not setting foot in another gym class. Why not have a Zumba class? Or a team sports class? Or a multitude of other classes that focuses on something the student would enjoy?

I also think that it might be a good idea to have gym classes based on ability level. For academic courses, there are honors, average, and remedial classes. Couldn't gym classes be created for the advanced, intermediate, and beginner athletes? If running is going to be a focus, lead students through a Couch to 5K program over several weeks instead of just throwing them into a mile run. Of course, education reform has its hands full right now with academic courses, so I don't see any focus on gym classes any time too soon.

Last spring, I ran a full mile for the first time in my life. So middle school girls out there, whether in age or in spirit, you can do it, too.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Zombies, Run! 5K: Week 3

Week 3 Work Out:
5 minute walk
5 minute free form run

5 cycles of:
1 minute running
1 minute walking
10 seconds knee lifts

8 minute free form run
2 minutes stretching
8 minute free form run

W3D1: Snow run! It was a little cold at first, but once I started moving I just focused on avoiding puddles and giving it my best. I went about a half mile longer than any of my previous runs. My speed/pace was down a little bit, but I was expecting that. I'm hoping to have it back under 15 min/mile by the third run. Most importantly, I ran 20 minutes total between running intervals and free form runs. Hoping to have that up to 25 minutes by run 3, as well.

Distance: 2.84 mi   Duration: 46:05 mins   Avg Speed: 3.70\mph   Avg Pace: 16:14 min/mi

W3D2: I feel extremely accomplished today. When I set the goal of 25 minutes running on day 1, I didn't realize that would mean all but one minute of all the interval and free form runs. As I figured it up, I realized that I hadn't yet run more than 3 minutes in a row, let along a full 8! But today I pushed myself early--ran all 5 of the first free form run. After intervals, I did 3 running-2 walking-3 running. So my plan was to repeat that on my last free form, but once I got started I kept pushing myself "just one more minute". After I passed the 5 minute mark, I knew I was going all the way. Yep, 8 minutes straight for a total of 24 minutes on this work out! Well over half of it I was running! I'm just ecstatic right now. Maybe I'll go for all 26 tomorrow?

Distance: 2.86 mi   Duration: 44:43 mins   Avg Speed: 3.84\mph   Avg Pace: 15:39 min/mi

W3D3: I can't wait for a day without a lot of wind! My snow run on Monday was more enjoyable weather-wise than the last two. But I guess that's why we have tights and Under Armor, so no more whining! The good news? I ran ALL 26 minutes--all free form runs plus all the intervals! I'm feeling like I'm making so much progress now that I'm running more than I am walking.

Distance: 2.81 mi   Duration: 43:07 mins   Avg Speed: 3.91\mph   Avg Pace: 15:19 min/mi

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

A Love Letter to Spaghetti Squash

Dear Spaghetti Squash,

I love you.

There! I said it! And it's not just infatuation, but true love. And there are so many reasons for my love. We're always told that it's what on the inside that matters. You, sir, prove that in a mighty way. Look at you just sitting on that table. On the outside, you look like the average, boring vegetable. Yellow. Oval. Easy to look over in the grocery store.

But you are so much more than the average squash. Inside you is the best pasta swap in the world. We simply have to cut you in half and remove all your seeds (sorry about that, by the way). Six to eight minutes in the microwave, or 30 to 40 minutes, rind side up, in the oven, and you're ready to provide an extremely healthy faux-pasta. Fork out your insides and you're ready to use in a multitude of recipes.


A whole cup of you is only 40 calories!!! A cup of pasta and you're looking at about 200-220 calories. You're so filling and so versatile!

As you know, I'm not much of creative cook, so I must give credit to others for the amazing dishes I've had you in. My mom would make you by simply swapping out spaghetti noodles for you in her own spaghetti recipe.

And recently, you've become a favorite ingredient of my husband too. (Don't worry, he knows I love you and is okay with that.) Chicken Parmesan was delicious, as was the Chicken Alfredo! My favorite was this week's tuna casserole-lots of veggies, protein, and some cheese! So tasty!


And if I find myself on day where I am going to be eating a large meal at some point, you make a great light lunch or dinner. Last week, I ate one cup of you with a 1/2 cup of spaghetti sauce and some Parmesan cheese for under 100 calories!

Once again, let me say, I love you.

Love,
Heather

PS: Don't tell spaghetti noodles, but not only do I love you, I prefer your taste too!


Monday, March 25, 2013

Friend Makin' Monday

I found this on another blog I occasionally read and thought it would be fun!

If you’ve taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section here at: www.alltheweigh.com so we can all see your FMM questions and answers. Please invite your blog readers to add their links here too so everyone has to opportunity to be seen. The idea is to connect with other awesome bloggers so take a moment to post your own FMM post and comment on a couple of other posts. Now it’s time for this week’s topic!
 
 
Ten Questions 

1. Describe the kind of home you would live in if money were no object. As long as money was no object to also afford a maid... because the bigger the house, the more to clean. So assuming that, a modern, log cabin style home that has some acreage to it, but is also not too far from civilization.

 2. Are you more conservative in your actions or more rebellious? I'm not much of a risk taker. This weekend, Tim painted our kitchen "berrylicious blast"--a purple with a hint of fuchsia. It's very bold and fun... and something I wouldn't have picked out on my own. Tim envisioned it and it looks great. I'm thankful God gave me a partner that encourages me to be a bit more of a risk taker.

 3. Would you go to Mars even if it meant you could never return to Earth? No way. All the people I love are here. Why would I leave them?

 4. Name one song that makes you want to dance every time you hear it. "I Love You" by Lecrae, ft. Chris Lee. This was the song that Tim and I entered our reception too. It's got a great beat and just makes me feel happy and in love!

 5. Share one thing that you wish you could go back and do differently in your life. I don't live with many regrets. But when I worked retail, one of my managers could fold a fitted sheet perfectly. How I wish I would have learned that skill.

 6. Share at least one accomplishment that people wouldn’t expect you to be proud of.  One thing I'm proud of that people might not expect or not know about me is that I was a virgin on my wedding day. Growing up in the late 90's/early 2000's, true love wait pledges were very popular in the Christian subculture. What could have been a taught as a passing fad, was instead reinforced with the "why" of waiting, rather than just the "rule" of waiting. I'm certainly not trying to judge anyone on their path through life here, but it is something I about my relationship with Tim that makes me very proud.

7. Describe one delicious thing that you’ve eaten lately. I'm a recovering macaroni and cheese addict. Yesterday, Tim made a reduced-everything mac and cheese that was really good! Low fat cheese, skim milk, healthier pasta... it was delicious!

8. If you had a theme song that would play every time you entered a room, which song would you choose? Ugly Day - Five Iron Frenzy
 
9. Had technology enhanced your life, or has it over complicated your life? Enhanced. I met Tim through technology (thanks Neil Clark Warren!). I feel much more connected to family and friends than I would without Facebook. Technology isn't perfect, but I wouldn't get rid of it. I just try not to be addicted to it.

10. If you could get paid to do any job, which job would you choose? Play with puppies. Or watching Orioles baseball. OR BOTH AT THE SAME TIME!

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Flatlining

Nobody wants to plateau. What good is any journey if you're not growing? Who wants to hang out in stagnant water?

My friend, Pat, recently told me about her frustration with plateaus, after the scale had spent too long on a certain number. Another morning came along and the number still hadn't budged. As she tells the story, she calmly opens her bathroom window, pulls up the screen, and tosses her scale in the yard. (For the record, her scale survived and she broke through her plateau shortly afterward.)

This morning I thought maybe I should follow suit, but I really didn't think our scale would survive a three story fall. Looking at the scale this morning, I was sorta-kinda thankful I didn't gain. At least I stayed the same, I told myself. Tim even reminded me, "you're a chick with a thyroid problem! Your progress is amazing!"

But ultimately, I felt that my body cheated me. I stayed under my daily calories every day--even on Thursday when we went to Texas Roadhouse with friends for dinner! I ordered broccoli and carrots instead of the loaded sweet potato! I ran five of the Zombies, Run! 5K workouts! I was not happy!

As I was having my own personal pity party this morning, I realized that I was sabotaging my own journey to strong. I couldn't blame the scale for my poor attitude. Only I can control my focus and I choose to set my aim for the positive. And I had to admit, there were a few positives to my week.

First off, I achieved my goal of 8 miles this week. In fact, I think I blew it out of the water! I ran/walked 11.16 miles this week. And that is something that makes me extremely happy.

Secondly, a few days ago, I was downstairs letting Penny outside to use the bathroom. When she came back in, I ran up to the third floor. When I got to our bedroom, I realized I wasn't out of breath--something I couldn't have said when we first moved in to our townhouse.

So I challenge anyone who hits the inevitable plateau in your weight loss, to strive for better, even if it isn't in the number you're seeing. How much better do you feel? How are your clothes fitting? What compliments are you receiving? Success is all about how we define it.

Weigh In Day 
This week: -0.0 lbs
Total: - 18.8 lbs

Goal: 3/24-3/30
Running: 10 miles
Weight: -2 lbs

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Zombies, Run! 5K: Week 2

Week 2 Work Out:
10 minute walk

5 cycles of:
30 seconds running
5 heel lifts
90 seconds walking

10 minute free form run

W2D1: We went up to the C&O Canal to run today. It was a nice change of scenery from running in the development. I had a great walk/run. (Tim had more of a frustrating run as Penny wanted to investigate every person, bike, and other dog they passed on the Canal.) For the free form run, I did a solid 2 minute run/1 minute walk ratio. It was my best pace since restarting training. I find trail running to be easier so I was curious to see how it would compare the next day.

Distance:  2.23 mi   Duration: 33:24 mins Avg Speed: 4.00 mph Avg Pace: 15.00 min/mi

W2D2: It was a little windy, but it felt great to be out in some sunshine. I really enjoyed the app today, too. One of my favorite characters, Sam, ran "with" me today so there was the most storyline in the workout since the intro episode. I upped one of my running intervals during the free run today from 2 minutes to 3. I was anxious to see my pace, and thrilled to see it was just a little behind my pace from day 1--and that was going back to road running. I will say that I feel weird doing heel lifts in the middle of our development. I'm sure people think it's strange to see me stop running and then lift up on my toes 5 times before walking again. But, I think the stretching during the intervals really helps my muscles recover. My calves have felt great all week.


Distance: 2.20 mi   Duration: 33:15 mins   Avg Speed: 3.96 mph Avg Pace:  15:09 min/mi

W2D3: Best pace/speed yet! Woohoo! Today was the nicest day we've had in a while. Sunny and high 40's, but still pretty windy. I was honestly surprised that I got my speed over 4 mph today. It felt so difficult at times, but with a lot of things in life, the difficult part wasn't as much physical, but more mental. I didn't sleep well the night before and was just having one of those days where I felt emotional and "blah". (Ladies, you know what I mean.) The great thing about exercise is getting those feel good endorphins flowing. After my run, I was at a better place mentally than I had been all day.


Distance: 2.22 mi   Duration: 32:43 mins   Avg Speed: 4.06\mph   Avg Pace: 14:46 min/mi

Looking ahead to week 3, I think it's going to be the first week to really challenge me physically. Longer intervals of running and more free form runs (where I really like to push myself!) so I'm hoping to see a lot of growth over the next 3 workouts.

Friday, March 22, 2013

Journey to Dynamai

A week ago, I was having lunch with one of my coworkers. She had taken her youngest granddaughter to the pediatrician that day. She had questions about how to talk to her older granddaughters about healthy choices. She was concerned because she didn't want to instill any harmful ideas about weight in them at such a young age.

The advice the pediatrician gave her was ingenious. Tell them, she said, they are on a journey to becoming strong. Not only did it address both girls' health goals, it could be a theme through everything in life. I loved it so much, I adopted it as my personal motto.

Tim has a thing for Greek words. He study the language as a part of his undergrad Biblical Studies degree. A single Greek word can express an entire idea more beautifully than it could even be translated to English, he tells me. Tim embraced the Greek word of hupomone (pronounced hoop-om-on-ay')—an idea of perseverance, conisistency, and endurance—as a part of his own health journey several years ago.

Loving that idea, I began to do my very first Greek word study to look at variations of strong. And then I found it...

δύναμαι

Or, dynamai (pronounced dü'-nä-mī). The concept of dynamai goes beyond just strength. It carries the idea of not just being strong, but that “it is possible”. It also expresses the idea of being capable due to “a state of mind”. And most important, it is also connect of a strength that is given by God.

How beautiful is that? It sums up everything I want this journey to be about. A physical strength. An emotional strength. And, a spiritual strength. That is the path I find myself on today and in my future.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Zombies, Run! 5K: Intro and Week 1

I'm a sucker for zombies lately, like the rest of America. Sunday nights are devoted to watching The Walking Dead. I've even read some of the graphic novels. So when I heard about the Zombies, Run! App, I was intrigued.

If you're not aware, Zombies, Run! is set in a small community during the zombie apocalypse. You join the community and are known as Runner 5. There is an ongoing storyline—think almost of an old radio show. As you run, the app plays your own music in between parts of the story. You are sent on missions to collect important items. While you are out on the mission, you occasionally need to evade a zombie. The app uses GPS technology and requires you to speed up for 1 minute sprints to stay safe.

And, if you're not ready for the full app like I am, they have also released an app for beginners providing training for a 5K. The 5K app, thus far, has been pretty light on the story line. The doctor from the community walk you through the running drills and you occasionally hear from other characters in the story. You cannot get caught by a zombie during the training in this app. So to me, the full app seems a lot more fun. And I'm very glad for that because it adds to my motivation for sticking with the 5K training app. Right now, Tim's using the full app. He really enjoys it and says the storyline is very engaging. He's actually frustrated that he can't talked to me about it because I don't want to be spoiled!

Intro: The intro has been my favorite episode. You can walk, run, or a combination of both for the entire work out. It starts with the story of how you reached Abel Township and provides interesting details about all these new characters. I feel like this episode was the most like the full app (minus the GPS zombie chases).

Distance: 2.04 mi Duration: 35:38 mins Avg Speed: 3.56 mph Avg Pace: 16:51 min/mi

Week 1 Work Out:

10 minute walk

10 cycles of:
1 minute walking
15 second running

10 minute free form run (walk, run, or combo of both)

W1D1: For my first day back at true 5K training, I can't really remember anything remarkable about this one. The weather was nice and I found the training intervals pretty easy. For the free form run, I alternated 1minute of running and 1 minute of walking.

Distance: 2.26 mi Duration: 39:39 mins Avg Speed: 3.52 mph Avg Pace: 17:02 min/mi

W1D2: I woke up early before church and ran in the cold. Both of these things are remarkable as I hate early mornings and the cold, but I felt great during the run and even better afterward. I was so focused during church. Afterward, we went grocery shopping. Once we returned, I felt so energetic that I organized the freezer and then completely cleaned the entire refrigerator.

Distance: 2.36 mi Duration: 35:58 mins Avg Speed: 3.77 mph Avg Pace: 15:54 min/mi

W1D3: This was most difficult run because it was such a windy day. When I got to the free run, I tried to do intervals of 2 minutes running, 1 minute walking. It seemed like every run interval, I was running into the wind. I kept thinking about the Biggest Loser workouts when the contestants run while pulling Jillian behind them, which helped me make it through. The one interval when I ran with the wind to my back, the 2 minutes flew.

Distance: 2.15 mi Duration: 34:15 mins Avg Speed: 3.67 mph Avg Pace: 16:20 min/mi

Monday, March 18, 2013

Trifecta of Gain

In my introduction post, I mentioned how my journey with weight has had its mountains and its valleys. My most recent journey began in the summer of 2010. It truly began with a picture.

I love baseball and one June evening, then Baltimore Orioles outfielder/DH Luke Scott was speaking at a local event. I purchased tickets and enjoyed the evening. Afterward, I waited for an autograph and picture with Luke. My excitement over the event turned to embarrassment when I saw myself in the picture.

The photo that forced me to acknowledge I needed to find the strength to change. Also, I did some really weird curly thing to my hair that evening.

After struggling the rest of the summer with feelings of disgust with myself, but in August I finally felt determined enough to do something. I joined Weight Watchers and acquired a gym membership. My first moment where I truly felt like I was finding some success was in October. One of my best friends was getting married. I had my last fitting for my bridesmaid dress just a few weeks into my new lifestyle. When I put the dress on the day of her wedding, I was ecstatic. It was loose! I could feel a huge difference between my last fitting and wearing it that day.

The calendar turned to 2011and somehow, almost remarkably, I stuck with all my new habits. By that summer, I was down about 50 pounds. It felt like a whole new me. In fact, in early September, I started a new job. I felt like it was the first time that people just knew Heather the person and not Heather the fat girl.

Over the next few months, I lost another 5 to 10 pounds. At the end of that year, I met Tim, my now husband. Starting a new relationship did wonders for me. Within that first month of “can't sleep, can't eat” feelings, I dropped another 10 pounds. At that point, I weighed less than I had since around middle school.

I took this photo to send to my best friend before leaving for my first date with Tim. I can't wait to get to that point again.

As you can guess, after the newness of our relationship wore off, those 5 to 10 pounds came back on pretty quickly. As Tim and I started spending more and more time together, I started counting WW Points less and less.

Tim had ran his marathon a few months prior to this and had then taken some time off of running. He was feeling burned out and dealing with shin splints for awhile. His love of running encouraged me to start a C25K program. We worked at it together which helped keep the weight in check since I wasn't following any eating program. We did a 5K in June of that year. I did pretty bad at it, but that's another story for another day.

Tim and I were married at the end of July. Thankfully at that point, I had only put back on about 10 pounds and didn't have any issues fitting into my wedding dress! I think I had a few nightmares about that scenario...

It fit, it fit! And the wedding was everything I ever dreamed it would be.

But then I entered what I have titled the Trifecta of Gain. I had read about the “Newlywed 15” the apparent older sister to the dreaded “Freshman 15”. It definitely hit me, especially as I continued to make worse choices with my food, with little to no exercise. At this time, I also was diagnosed with a thyroid disorder and a benign tumor in my brain. On top of that, the beginning to this school year was intense. I work with students who are in a self contained special education room. While I love what I do, there were numerous moments in the fall where I did not think I could keep it up. By the end of 2012, I had gained a total of 30 pound back of what I had lost originally!!

The good news? Everything is looking up—except for my weight! I decided to save money and go with calorie counting on My Fitness Pal instead of Weight Watchers. I also started to do some Zumba—videos only. I'm embarrassed enough to Zumba in front of both my husband and my dog! And most recently, I'm giving the 5K training again.

The result? Since January 6th, I've lost 18.8 lbs. Despite the two steps forward, one step back approach, I'm really thrilled with how I'm feeling and that when Spring rolls around, I'll be able to fit into my cute sundresses! I was really worrying about that a few months ago... And I'm not the only one making progress on this journey. Tim has lost almost 30 pounds since mid-January and is eyeing a half marathon in a few months. He's always looked great to me, but I love how much healthier we are both becoming.

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Honest thoughts

Yesterday, I asked Tim for any thoughts he had on the start of this blog. He gave me two pieces of feedback. “Well you make me out to be a bit of a villain,” he tells me. “What!?” was my reply. He went on to explain in my cheat day story, I wrote that he cooked unhealthy food for me several times.

So to clarify, Tim is actually a very health conscious cook. A few years ago, before we met, he went from out of shape dude to running a marathon in the Fall of 2011. He is the main chef in our home, so I'm thankful that he can take skinless chicken breasts and veggies and turn them into masterpieces. He's also a great support when it comes to working out and a invaluable source of information about all things healthy.

His second remark about the start of the blog was one word. Honesty.

And to be honest, as of this point, I haven't shared the link to this on social networking or with anyone but him. I am working towards that point. I find no point of a personal blog if it lacks honesty. It may involve painful memories or bad decisions, but I'm hoping not only to keep myself more accountable, but possibly help someone else out through my journey.

Weigh In Day 
This week: -4 lbs (3 of those lbs were the gained last week due to the birthday cheat week disaster)
Total: - 18.8 lbs

Goal: 3/17-3/23
Running: 8 miles
Weight: -2 lbs

Saturday, March 16, 2013

Cheater, cheater

You know what the greatest part of a diet—excuse me, life style change—is, right? It's kind of like Christmas morning. You start to feel the anticipation days in advanced. You wake up knowing that it's finally here! Today! Today is your cheat day!

That might be a slight exaggeration, but I will be the first to admit that I enjoy a cheat day, at least until the end of the day. By then, I'm usually feeling bloated and sick. My husband, Tim, told me once that the whole purpose of a cheat day isn't really to give yourself a break. The purpose is to remind yourself how much better you feel when you're eating a healthy, balanced diet.

But sometimes, we fall off the wagon and have trouble climbing back on. Welcome to my life last week. My birthday was Friday the 8th. I spent the entire week in a birthday induced food coma.

It started out on Sunday with a trip to Cracker Barrel. I even ordered apple sauce for one of my three (THREE!!!) sides that day in an attempt to make one healthy choice, but the waitress brought me coleslaw by mistake. I said nothing and enjoyed the calorie laden side. That night, we went to a local pizza shop where I had two slices and shared an order of cheesy crab fries with a side a ranch with Tim. That night, I ate a cold slice of left over piece a bit before heading to bed. Big mistake. I was up half the night sick. You would have thought I learned...

Monday and Tuesday went by without an incident. Wednesday, though, the east coast was hit with a “giant” snow storm. It didn't amount to more than a few inches that melted by mid-afternoon, but as Tim and I both work in schools, it got us a day off work. There's something about snow, though, that makes me want to eat. I can't even remember everything I ate that day, but it was bad. The one thing I do remember is that Tim made breakfast that morning. I had a few pieces with my breakfast... and then throughout the morning, as I would walk by the left overs sitting on a plate in the kitchen, I'd grab another piece... and another... and another. About two hours after breakfast, Tim kindly informed me that he had made an entire pack of bacon—12 slices—and he had only had 3 or 4 of those slices. I broke down into tears. How had I eaten 9 slices of bacon? Still, the week continued without me really learning a lesson.

A decent Thursday led into my birthday on Friday! I had lunch with my co-workers at Panera Bread, which has a lot of healthy choices. I did “splurge” on broccoli cheddar instead of my usual choice of low cal Chicken Noodle. Still, not bad. Evening led to a dinner at UNOs. I picked the restaurant purely for the dessert—the giant Peanut Butter Cup. It was as delicious as I remembered and the deep dish pizza was good too. My night didn't end there, though. We stopped at 7 Eleven where I picked up a cola Slurpee, a pack of Sour Skittles, and a bag of Utz's Salt and Vinegar Chips. Oh, salt and vinegar chips? Another trigger food. I can eat a big bag in one sitting if I kept them in my house. I think my only good food decision that day was to get a single serving bag of those chips!

The birthday weekend went on for another two days, sadly. Tim made me a great birthday breakfast (my favorite meal of the day) on Saturday, but I did go easy on the bacon, at least. We went out to eat with his side of the family for dinner that night. The fatty foods continued—fried onion petals, a loaded sweet potato, and a piece of Amish style chocolate cake with peanut butter icing. Sunday we had family dinner with my side of the family—fried chicken, macaroni and cheese, red velvet cupcakes, and ice cream with hot fudge, just to name a few.

At the end of that week, I gained 3 pounds back. I guess I should be thankful it wasn't worse on the scale, especially after the Bacon Epidemic of 2013, as it will now be called. But worse than any number on the scale was how miserable I felt. Physically, I was run down, tired, bloated. Emotionally, I felt like a failure.

Tomorrow will be a week since I ended my birthday eating binge. I'd do a lot different if I could go back in time, but I also learned a lot of great lessons.
  1. Weight comes back on way too fast to cheat too frequently. Three pounds in a week is a scary number. Three times 52 weeks is... 156 pounds!
  2. Future cheat days will be done differently. Yes, I'll take a break for calorie recording, but I will limit myself to one special meal that day. A cheat breakfast, lunch, and dinner is unnecessary.
  3. It's never too late to get back on the wagon. Sunday evening, I felt like I just wanted to give up, but Monday morning I broke out my measuring cups, opened up MyFitnessPal.com, and resumed my journey to strong.